No one read this,so ill post it again...(Please read all of this entry,or at least the bottom 3-4 paragraphs)

Well my cable was cut yesterday(friday) but i was at R and Ks house playing DDR.I did horrible.Even constince(who told me shes bad)did better than me.Carolyn told me i just have to get good at i song and ill be fine.Im only good at Tsaguro(probably spelled that wrong) but ill have to wait till Patrick gets back to play.It was fun though.

Well i saw AVP last night(friday).It rocks socks!All the humans die except for the girl.It was so cool!And i saw it with my neibhors(always better to see movies with friends)and i talked to the stalker(who apparently only gets on at night)I gave him my list and he said he could be either Crolyn,Lnda or Kelsey.Gasp!Theyre all in band!Ill have to ask Carolyn(shes the only one of those 3 who listens to me)about wich one of them it is!Bwahahahahahahahaha!Also,i now have a secret weapon to discover who the stalker is so if you read this,watch out.

I finnaly put up a Deviation on my site(even though its just my desktop)!And my drawings gotten better!Ive been drawing for a little over 2 years and im doing great!But then i saw my friends drawings...

1.  I stopped by treys locker to hear something on his Ipod but I saw 1 of his newer drawings and it totally crushed mine!
2.  I saw Katheryns oil painting on Deviant art.Also Amazing!If i did an oil painting,it wouldnt look amazing,AT ALL!

Oh well.And i noticed something weird walking home yesterday.Whenever im walking,no matter whre im walking,i end up wallking with Carolyn.I like talking to her and shes really nice to me but this keeps happening.And  i argue with her more than i do with my brother(who as it turns out was spying on my friends when i went inside).She said the same things pretty much!She also told me when we walked by a tree that shed like to be able to draw that someday.Id like to draw that to.That would be great.

Ive been thinking over the past few days.When i heard the pope died,i talked to someone i know online and she said that she didnt really care.I mean,even if youre not religious,someone still died!I told her i understood,but i dont.

I wish i were someone else.No one cares if im mad,sad,depressed,hurt...As long as i do stuff for them theyre cool.I wish i didnt care about everyones problems and acomplishments and put there needs before my own!I wish everyone wouldnt pick on me or get mad at me when i do something wrong!I wish i could go to a place where i truly belong!I WISH I COULD JUST DISSAPEAR!NOT LIKE ANYONE WOULD CARE.ONE LESS PERSON TO BE HERE!"sigh".No,i guess all i really ned is someone who understands the things i say.Someone who cared about me and was always there.Just someone to lean on.Someone i can trust and talk to about all the things ive kept inside for so long.Someone who likes the things i like.All i really need is someonne like that.Just a really good friend.Whenever i go to school i see 2 kinds of people.Those in a big group of people and those just by themselves.I always believed i was the kind always surrounded by people,but now that i open my eyes.Im juse like the ones alone.By themslves.With noone to lean on.The most important things in my life have always been my friends.Ive always tried to be a great friend,But im truly the one that needs one the most...

...What would it be like to see the world in a way totally diffrent than the ones who see the world they belive their in thats blinding them from what the world really looks like.I now know...

Hahaha, When I attempted to play DDR, I failed after like 2 arrows!
I thought you Deviation was pretty good. I mean for only drawing for 2 years, and if you pratice more you can get even better. ^_^
Ehhhh, don't wish you were someone else. You're cool people just have ups and downs. I'm sorry you feel so left out, I'm sure there is someone out there. ^_^

Failed after 2 arrows!?!Lucky,i failed before the song started.I remembered the machines words"that was the WORST dance ive ever seen!Never play on this machine again!"
Thanks for going to my deviation site!Ill tell you when i get a scanner and have some sketches up there!(as a matter o fact im almost done with a sketch of vash,which will be my first deviation)I need to work especially on my shading and drawing people besides guys(cant draw girls)
Yeah i know i shouldnt want to be someone else but still.And i know,i had a problem like this in spring break.I hope your right about someone being out there for me.I could really use someone right now.Thanks for your concern.

Hmm this sounds familiar.."that was the WORST dance I've ever seen!Never play on this machine again!" Yea you'll have to let me know about those awesome sketches - sketching is my fav. And, yup anytime!

The quote was from the DDR flash cartoon.Do you know how to install a scanner and use it?Please tell me if you do.