My adittude torwards The thing i talked about at the end of last entry(read it!)remain the same.Thanks for trying,Shadow.

Anyhoo,Big dissapointment on my friends reaction to the sketch of Vash.I unintentionally(they saw me draw it)showed people in my classes.They thought it was cool.So why is it my friends didnt?I know most of them are alot better than me but they didnt have to critizize it.Its so hard to trust even my friends now.This is why...

I figured out who the stalker was.It was linda like i thought it had been at the start,but half the table were in on it so they thought it would be "fun"to watch me try to figure it out so they gave me false info!SOME FRIENDS!They act like im somew kinda punching bag and they can hit me with insults and critizizm untill my stuffings coming oul all over.WHAT THE HELL IS THEIR PROBLEM!Im a human with basic needs,thats all.Even my closest friends who ive known for so long do this.Why?Dont they know when to stop?Cant they just stop messing with me andjust be a decent friend?Or at least a decent human?

Why does the world hate me so much?Why do they have to do this kind of stuff to me?Especially my friends...

I wish everything could go away.Just stop.So i could start over my life.I KNOW I CANT BUT THIS IS ALL SO FRUSTRAITING!Maybe the world would be better if i was never born.Im sure it would make alot of people happy.All i wanted was to help people.

I really need someone to lean on.Just 1 person who i can fully trust and talk to.Just a friend.Thats It.Not much else.

If your reading this and i know you personally at least tell me why you do this stuff to me!

Just a good friend...just one...I feel so alone,like theres a world pulled over my eyes but when i remove tha world all i see is nothing.Emptyness.No one cares for my existance.Not anyone.Why cant there be someone!WHY!?!